It feels like it’s been forever since I’ve posted on my website, and in online terms the two years since my last post almost qualifies.
In January of 2023, I decided to take a step back from being a full time artist in the pursuit of more financial stability and an attempt at what felt like a chance to get some things in order by taking a “proper” job. That could not have been a worse decision. Full stop.
Not only did the job I took not end up being better financially, it was emotionally/physically exhausting and left me so much worse off. So much so that it spilled over and was bad for my kid, too. So I did the only thing I could reasonably do and I resigned from that job, and have gone back to my old life, or at least something resembling it. There’s less money, but I can be there for my kid and for myself and that is far more important. I’m 47, single mom to my very favorite newly-minted teenager, and ever more self-assured that my raison d’être is to be an artist.
Something that I have incredibly hesitant to really accept all these years is that there is a certain amount of running-a-business involved with being an artist, at least if you ever hope to make any money at it, and since I’m not anywhere close to being independently wealthy, if I want to be able to spend my time making art, then I need to think about it like a business. I come from a long line of entrepreneurs and have had a number of businesses of my own over the years. I’ve had a construction company, owned an award winning restaurant, ran a children’s consignment shop amongst other things, all the while making art.
About 8 or 9 years ago, I decided that this “side gig” of making art was actually what I should be putting the bulk of my time and effort into. The difference it made in my work and in my heart was amazing when I let myself be “an artist”. I think that was when I finally let go of the idea that I was supposed to be an architect (a near-fatal accident put an end to that in 1999) who was just doing other things instead. I still love architecture, but looking back at it all, I’m glad that my foray into the world of architecture was short lived. I’m far happier making art than I would ever have been designing buildings. I’d still love the chance to design a bridge someday.
So now I’m back here, to being me, to being creative (there’s almost nothing worse for a creative person than to be too tired to create) and so I’m going to be making work, being the best mamma I can be, and trying to live my life the best way I can. I do love to write, so it’s silly that I’ve done such a lousy job of writing on my website. There has already been so much less of me on social media in the last couple of years, and I’m okay with that. So going forward, I’ll be here much more often on my website sharing my work and my writing with you. Thanks for following along on this thing called life…
Much love,
Angel